Pamela, I’ve found myself in the same situation and I haven’t known what to say. I think no one can ever know what to say in these circumstances, and we each deal with loss in our own way. There is comfort in listening though, and I appreciate that you took the time to read this post and to comment.

Sabriena, I’m so sorry about your Grandfather. Your comment helped me to feel that I’m not alone in my grief and anger in addition to the requisite contemplation that always seems to be the unwanted gift in all of this. I’ve done a lot of thinking in the last months, and I don’t know if I’m closer to any answers, but I do feel an….evolving, if you know what I mean. Anyways, thank you for commenting.

Jenn, *with a chuckle* This is all your fault! I remember reading your comment about, “Take all the time you need” and I felt like I was just let out of school. I breathed a sigh of relief, and turned away from my blog for these last months. I’m not sure that my blog is better for it, but I am…somehow. I can’t really explain it. Anyways, thank you for being so supportive!

Mary, You and I are definitely on the same wavelength. While I try to see all that, “there’s a reason for everything” crap, a lot of the time I just get frustrated. I’m still trying to find peace with all of this, but the anger is still there. Most days it’s lukewarm, but others it can still burn white hot. I’m glad I could, in a small way, validate some of the anger we all feel from death. Thank you for your comment.

Chou, Thank you for that heartfelt comment. I don’t know if the “chasm” has been bridged yet, but it doesn’t seem as deep. Thanks again.

Steph, We’ve talked, and you’ve gone through your own roller coaster since this. I’m so thankful for your friendship and I hope I can be as good a friend to you as you have to me. (Love your gravatar by the way!)

AmyRuth, I try to do just as you said every day. I’m still searching out my purpose, and I’m not sure if I’m any closer. Many things seem insurmountable, but I try to keep the hope alive. As to my family, ugh. It’s a tough one, but something I know I’ll need to deal with more fully at some point. Anyways, thanks for your comment.

Leesa, I am so, so sorry to hear about your Mother. I know from my own Mother’s experience when we lost my Grandmother that the loss of a mother doesn’t ever go away. It’s been over ten years and she can still feel the loss keenly. In addition to everything else, I have been FREAKING out about my own Mom since she’s had some bleeding and she’s way past post-menopausal. We both don’t have insurance, so all I’ve basically been able to do is just pray. I can’t imagine going on without her right now, so I’m praying very hard. My heart goes out to you, and I wish you all the best. Thank you so much for commenting.

I just found your blog by chance, looking at cupcake pics… I have been very melancholy lately as it’s coming up to 4 years since my mom passed away from breast cancer… I had so much angry and sadness… well, you know the emotions that go with losing ones you love… I wanted to write to share my sympathies with you… I know it’s something that is very hard to move past… I still miss my mom soooo very much… even though life goes on… it’s hard not to think of our loved ones on a daily basis and how there is no way we can communicate with them or see them… All my best to you.. and I’m very sorry for the loss of your loved ones…

I, too, was angry when he passed. I think it’s a normal feeling when you lose someone and begin to evaluate their life. You can never ask them if they were truly happy with the way they lived and the life that they had. It does bring your own mortality into play.

It will get better. I can promise you that. Although it may not feel like it now, it will. I’m so sorry again for your loss.